Not sure whose around to read this anymore. Probably just posting this for my own sake and sanity.

Thinking, over thinking, it’s wasteful to let your thoughts run rampant and untamed, it’s better; but dangerous to understand and handle them. It’s always better to have someone to help you out…

You know.. those times when you think, this person I can always rely on. But then when you really spoof and open up, they start too.. push you away? And when that was the only person around to listen, help, hold you up if something tried to knock you down, it becomes… difficult to say the least.

Then it comes again, those dark places where you never wanted to be again, when you feel just utterly alone without a single light to guide your way. You feel around and you can sense there’s objects around you, you recognise them and they recognise you but they don’t help you…

When you feel like everythings just constantly going the other direction for you, against you and opposing you every step of the way.

Then once upon a time things seemed okay. Not good, but sustainable. Then you try things out, see how they hold and you think. DAYUM! This is working out pretty well, then you find out it was all a twist of fate and life was just fudging around with you again. Like beforehand, the Universe came… gave you a cookie and said “Here have this delicious awesome cookie!” and you’re over the moon. Then… bam. The cookies gone and the Universe says to you “Cookies going to someone else, bye.” simple as that…

Feeling utterly alone, unaccomplished and cold. Just a dark place, no help seems to be in sight, no one to give you a helping hand. Nothing goes your way…
Overthinking. Maybe. Truth. Yes.

Unfortunately..

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