Yeah sure, I game all the time and yes I don’t help much at home do I?

Then you go on and start talking about my grades in highschool, about how even though I had tuition my marks ended up the way they did, ever wonder why I took those subjects? Because YOU wouldn’t of wanted me to do any other kinds of subjects deep down. Because deep down, you wanted me to do all the Asian subjects and be super smart like all your friends kids, get high marks, become an accountant, doctor, god knows what else.

Am I saying I’m not appreciative of what you do for me? No, do I not show it, yes definitely.

Oh but then you go on and talk about what I want to do with my life, do you know what I wanted to do with my life? Music. Do you remember what you objected to so heavily I decided to give up? Oh that’s right MUSIC. So why don’t I have any direction for the future right now? OH YEAH, BECAUSE YOU OBJECTED SO HEAVILY. So much so I have no idea what I’m going to do now, that’s why I sit in front of the computer, because it gives me somewhere to go instead of thinking about a future where I have to plan and think so that you can approve of my plans.

Yes I feel like a jerk for not helping out at home, you work a lot for my sake and I love you for that. But it doesn’t mean you have to rip me a new one all the time, I need a direction that you approve, can’t you do that for me? My direction was so ludicrous that apparently it wanted a NO NO NO NO when I decided it two years ago. Now I’m just babbling, yes I’m really angry that you’re angry at me and I understand full-heartedly why you’re angry with me to be honest. Will I try to change, I hope so.

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